Oh…My…Sweet…Jesus!
I just did an exercise DVD lasting a whole 20 minutes. Pilates. Easy version. Kicked my ass.
I don’t know whether to be proud of myself or revolted by the state my body has fallen to. Five months of chemo, six weeks of radiation, surgery three weeks ago. Right now I can hardly make it around the block. It was pretty funny doing all these exercises with my little T-Rex arms dangling out front of my body. I also got myself a DVD of exercises to do after breast cancer surgery. It was good but boring. Just a lot of arm flapping. Controlled flapping but flapping nonetheless. I did that DVD too.
God.
I am trying very hard to be proud of myself but am embarrassed I found this stuff so difficult.
The good news is that I have lost 11 lbs over the last 3 weeks. Basically I haven’t got my appetite back after surgery and my stomach is still wrecked from the antibiotics.
I might be cancer free but I ain’t out of the woods yet. BulgeWatch 2006 continues.
18 comments:
Take it easy, you will get back to working out hard core soon enough! It's great that you were able to do 20 minutes. You had a surgery just recently! Go you!
As they told me a year ago when I stress fractured a ligament in my lower back (I weighed 288 at 5"8", my waist was 58")
"You didn't get this way in a day, it won't go away in a day..."
Right now, 203, 34" waist...
Of course, before the holidays, I was just under 200...grrrrrr!
:o)
alan
I do the Yoga Zone series, and have for quite a while...have you ever done yoga in a school? If not, one of the things they stress is that its YOUR practice, and what that means is - its not a competition. It also means you can adjust your practice for what your level is - I have a killer stress fracture and can't even sit cross-legged or bend my left leg more than a couple of inches, so I adjust everything accordingly.
So don't beat your self up is what I'm trying to say, ok? :)
You were able to do all that already? Wow! You go girl! (Oh, and the T-Rex arms make me laugh too. WITH you, not at you.)
And remember, sushi is not fattening. Much.
The arm flapping is making me laugh. I don't know why. Perhaps b/c it reminds me of my cow-herding technique. Keep up that video and you will be one awesome cow herder, girl.
T-Rex arms??? I totally get the visual!
Don't be so hard on yourself. The intent to 'workout' is there, that's enough.
Proud of yourself. Defintely proud of yourself.
And did you know you were nominated for a blog award? I'm behind on my reading, so maybe you already know, but just in case you don't:
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I'm proud of you. Exercising and losing weight. Woohoo.
I can't believe the state my body has fallen into this winter either although mine is simply due to laziness, tee,hee..
Honey. I can't believe you are beating yourself up for not being able to squeeze yourself into a pretzel. Nuthead! You will get better just give it some time. I pooka you!
Take it day by day and don't push yourself...Even if you do just 10 mins, that is a huge acomplishment.
Congrats!
You should be so, so proud of yourself. Hell, I'm proud of you. With all you've just gone through it's amazing that you're even ready to exercise at all. You just named all the horrible things your body's been through. Sounds to me like you should be thrilled that you were able to 20 minutes of exercise. Love yourself and give it the time it needs.
Blove and hugs
Ditto what everyone else said. You got the DVD out and did it and you are embarrassed?? I'm totally impressed by your attitude. What a great way to live.
:)
Pilates kicked my butt when I first started,and I didn't have surgery. I commend you on your motivation!!
Good grief woman! Of COURSE you're going to be wiped out! I can't believe you did so much when you're just starting out! It's important to take care of yourself first...that means work up to it girlie! Geezohpete...leave you alone for a day or two and look what happens! LOL
Um, HELLO! You've been busy kicking Cancer's scrawny little ass. It might have taken a lot out of you. We've all been there with the "how did I let myself get so out of shape?" but most of us don't have that excuse. Good for you for gettin' back to it! Don't push too hard or beat yourself up.
I second what Ern said!
You're doing just fine. :o)
Oh lady when i started that stuff after all my bone grafts and everything I was in the same boat as you. Took me a good month to get through that 20 minute workout without going, oh god im gonna die, ow ow ow, muscles stop shaking...
it will get easier, you just go easy on yourself there missy.
No cat pictures? Are you concrned that maybe my grouchy cat Oscar might get ideas that I would begin to start putting clothes on him because I'm so jealous of how sweet is the cat Yoshi?
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