Life in the Slow Lane

Life in the Slow Lane

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

It's Drafty In Here

Well I did it. I shaved my head. Well, what is left is about an inch long. I think it looks terrible but my mom who had the buzzing honours thinks it looks cute. We’ll just call her The Impartial Third Party. I could roll in shit and she’d think it was cute. My mom is my biggest fan. That’s what moms do and I love her for it. It is definitely times like these that one really needs her own personal cheerleader.

It is actually quite liberating. My head feels lighter and there is no more creepy long hairs falling around me wherever I go. Yuck.

I am not quite ready to show you the results as it is all flat in some places and sticking up in others. I couldn’t shower today because of my recent porta-cath insertion. I will wash it and gel it up for a proper photo soon.

The hair was the final bastion of normalcy. I could almost pretend nothing was wrong but now every time I look in the mirror I will have visual evidence of my cancer. I should say of my TREATMENT for my cancer. That is a positive way of looking at it. It is the cure not the cancer that is causing this.

I am curious about how it will grow back. Will it be curly or straight? It is a little wavy now. Will it be all grey or grey free? It is a little grey now. I wonder.

10 comments:

Susie said...

It will grow back fucking gorgeous. "Don't-hate-me-because-I'm-beautiful" gorgeous. THAT is how it will grow back. That is all.

whfropera said...

did you watch the rerun of Sex and the City last night? (it will be on again tonight) where Samantha throws off her wig and embraces the short hair? its pretty cool.
um, I hope my story about Melissa didnt trip you out too much - I thought about it and realized that its probably because she IS 4 and doesn't have the life experience we do, that she couldn't "psych herself out" the way, believe me I WOULD.
She asked me to tell you that food will taste funny sometimes. (because of the treatment)

oh, and hey, if you don't want me to talk about it, tell me and I won't - I don't want this to turn into adooce thing where she would hate on people who were just trying to offer suggestions...
rock on...

Dang Cold.. said...

I'll bet you look cute as hell. It'll be fine darlin'. Susie's right it'll grow back stunning and you'll be even MORE the catnip for the gents.

REOW!!

dc

L.Bo said...

Working like mad on the electric blue surrogate. I think it is going to be way too warm for summer though. Had best get some finer yarn after we know it fits. Everyone in Toronto is eager to see how it looks on.

A friend of mine, whose hair was almost white and thinnish, had it grow back charcoal and thick and wavy. What's with that?

I have seen you have your hair in some pretty outrageous styles. I'm sure the Mom-do will be no more strange or startling once you have it clean and smooshed. And you're right - it is evidence that the drugs are doing what they are supposed to be doing.

Joanne in Inuvik sends her greetings and best wishes. She always has a different perspective and is cheering for you in your challenge to let go of being in control, as well as recovering your health and well being.

L.Bo said...

A quote from Joyce Agu, winner of The Amazing Race, about shaving her head.

"Once you shave it off, you have nothing to hide behind," said Joyce. "People can actually see your soul. It's so bizarre. I'm glad I did it."

Candace said...

Oh, sweetie, I know how hard it must have been to just let it go. But I bet your mom is right; you have the perfect shaped face for uber-short hair. I bet you look like a pixie!

*hugs*

Von Krankipantzen said...

SUSIE-that is enough for me. Growing back woudl be enough. gorgeous would be more than I could handle.

WHFROPERA-No h8in' here. I blog about my cancer experience and don't mind one little bit hearing about others. I feel bad that Melissa has to go through something like this. Not fair one bit. Gve her a hug form her Canadian Cancer buddy. I have heard about this plot line on SITC but hav eyet to see it. I will keep my eyes open.

DANG COLD-thanks for the male perspective on the female shaved head phenom. I am hoping that it will grow back red and dangerous. Reow indeed!

LBO-It is amazing how much us women folk (and men too) pin so much of our identity on hair-dos. I do think it looks funny on me but everybody else seems to like it. Hmmmmm... However nobody has told me that my soul is showing yet. Must have it tucked into my panties.

MISFIT-honestly it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. But I did feel like everybody knew I had cancer when I was in the drugstore today. But at the Cancer Agency I am just one in a crowd of baldies.

Von Krankipantzen said...

Sorry about the typos but the cat is sleeping on my arm. Right on it.

spoonleg said...

It's going to grow back grey-free and frizz-free, you little movie star.

Well at least show us some of those awesome hats you've got!

L.Bo again said...

Oddly enough, there is a photo of Natalie Portman in this weeks Time Magazine with her head shaved. Seems you've started a trend. She said her head was so soft, she couldn't stop touching it.