Today is the day before my second chemo appointment. I am taking it easy and really enjoying feeling good today. I am eating up a storm just in case I feel terrible again for a few days.
Yesterday found me at the Cancer Clinic again for a doctor’s appointment and blood work. I got some very good news. My bone scan came out clean so no metastasis which is a big relief. The tech told me it was a clean scan but part of me didn’t believe her as I had been told the same thing by the ultrasound radiologist and we all know what happened there. I got some potentially minor bad news. My blood counts were low and if they don’t come up by tomorrow my chemo must be postponed until they are at a good level. Some people might consider this a welcome respite but I just want it over with. After tomorrow I will be 1/3 of the way through my treatments and the chemo after that will put me at the halfway mark. After that I am over half way and almost finished. I also know that I should be taking this one day at a time. But a girl can dream, right? When I break it down like that it seems more manageable opposed to something I will be doing until August. That seems very far away. Hell, summer will be almost over!
Tabularasa posted a pic of her with super short hair so I have decided to post one of myself too. She took the first risk. Thanks! I probably could have showered and put on some make-up but I am very tired today and my blood count is low DAMMIT! (I’m sure chocolate will help) and I think you should see me, pasty skin and all. This is what I look like. Frankly, I am happy I still have hair.
So tomorrow is chemo and I am nervous about it as I know I will be feeling crappy soon. But then I might not. Got some different nausea meds so that will help me out. Did laundry yesterday so I am set with that. I have a game plan for eating through this and have got that figured out too. I think part of why I felt so bad last time is that all these sensations were weird and new. I know what to expect now. I also have a big shwack of Ativan. Oh YEAH! Whatever it takes to get through the day…